Thursday, February 21, 2013
The Dream Job
Growing up isn't as fun as people say it is.
I remember being at OBU, desperately wanting to "be done" with college. I mean, having open dorm rules is super lame, especially when that means that you and your boyfriend can only watch movies in the student center on the weekends (as I said, super lame). However, while I was wishing my college life away, I didn't think about the stresses that are involved with having a career.
As many of you know, I taught in the public school last year. I L-O-V-E-D seeing my students every day, and I loved being a difference-maker. However, the work environment was a nightmare. To the point where I got so sick, and I had to leave at the end of the school year. So I decided to follow my dream of getting an even higher degree, and I enrolled in graduate school. I've learned SO much, grown in every way imaginable, and can't believe that my time as a grad student is coming to an end.
Last October, I found out that my dream job was open, and that the institution was hiring. I got my hopes up. Big time. Everything seemed almost too perfect- the timing of the search to fill the position, the timing of me finishing my degree. I told people to start praying that it would happen for me. I sent in my application, and the waiting game began.
A week ago today, I found out that they didn't want me. I was devastated. I fought tears. THIS WAS MY DREAM JOB.
and i didn't get it.
For some strange reason, once the reality of not getting the job set it, I felt a strange peace, something I was most certainly not expecting, considering the circumstances. It's like I could hear God saying "Just wait until you see what I have in store for you. It's better than what you could have ever imagined."
So now, I am back at square one. I have absolutely no idea where I am going to work next year. As of right now, the thought of teaching again scares me, simply because I don't want to have the same experience that I had last year again. I would be foolish to put myself in that situation. I literally have no idea where I'll be in a few months.
Here's to the unknown, and trusting that God (as always) knows best.