Leslyn's Lovely Life: Mama Mondays

Monday, September 15, 2014

Mama Mondays



Leslyn's Lovely Life
Well, this mama survived her first week back at work. PRAISES. I didn't cry, but I think it had a lot to do with the fact that my mom was here to keep our little E. Today, he starts at his day care. I'm super nervous about it, even though I've heard great things about the room he'll be in. So if you could say a little prayer for me today (and this week) as I hand him over to complete strangers, I'd appreciate it.

If I could sum up my life in one word at this moment, it would be OVERWHELMED. So I need to get a few things off of my chest. Hopefully some of you can relate. 

1. I really need to clean the house, but I don't get to love on Emmett while I'm at work, so I end up choosing to spend time with him. While I don't regret my decision to love on him, I don't like sitting in a house that I clean. And yes, my husband is super helpful around the house, but I want to do it because it's kind of therapeutic for me. 
2. Pumping at work is SO STINKING HARD. WOW.
3. I want to throw out about half of my stuff in my house so everything is much more simplified. All of the "noise" and clutter is bothering me and stressing me out. 
4. I miss my kiddo all the time. Even when he's in the other room. Good grief. 
5. I missed 3 weeks of school, and I have SO much to do to get caught up. Last week, I never stopped to take a break. Like, I ate while I was doing something else. 
6. I haven't gone grocery shopping in nearly 2 weeks.
7. There's a secret project I'm about to start working on, but I'm so scared that I will fail.
8. Medical bills are super dumb. Insurance is even worse. 
9. Sometimes, the blog stresses me out... But then I start writing about everything, and I feel so much better. So I'm not quitting the blog.
10. I feel like I've been irritable over the past few weeks... I suppose it's sleep deprivation? Regardless, I feel terrible for the catty things that go on in my brain (I try to filter them and not say things out loud). 

So there's a fraction of what's going on in my brain. I promise that next week will be more fun and happy and light. 

Leslyn's Lovely Life
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43 comments:

Kristy @ Rejoice and Repeat said...

My daughter will be 17 months ::tears:: on the 19th. The majority of your post, from cleaning to missing her to feeling overwhelmed resonate with me. I believe it's our natural state as mom's with young children. Shower you and your family and remember we're given the strength and grace we need each day.

Kristy @ Rejoice and Repeat said...

That should have said " shower you and your family with prayer" lol

Sierra&Faith Winks and Eyerolls said...

Completely understand what you are going through. There are just not enough hours in a day. Enjoy your time with E and the house work will get done, eventually. Try to put a night aside that once he goes to bed you can clean. Pumping at work is very difficult! If you haven't already, look into getting a pumping bra. It helped me a lot and I can still multi-task in my office. Hang in there, your love for E and your husband is the most important part. With God's help everything else will fall into place.

Lilith Dorsey said...

I completely find cleaning cathartic, so I understand.

Alli Smith said...

Praying for you! I know it's hard to go back to work and leave your little one.

J Young said...

I hear ya on wanting to throw a bunch of stuff out to simplify your life! I feel the same way! On most of the other stuff, I promise it will get easier! :)

Stephanie Cox said...

1, 3, 7, 8 and 9 are all things I deal with as a SAHM. I think it may take some time but you'll get to the point where you can juggle it all. Hugs to you and I'll be praying, too.

theaccidentalmama.com said...

I am dying over here. That face is too much! Sigh. My hormones really need to cool it.
xoxo
The Accidental Mama
http://theaccidentalmama.com

Fiona Naughton said...

Oh my God he's adorable! :)

Nancy said...

Omg how sweet, I just 'awwed' at the screen when you said you miss your babe even when he's in the other room!!

Camille Millecam Whiting said...

I think the adjustment is always hard. Give yourself a few weeks- you'll get the hang of everything again!

Mandy@ a sorta fairytale said...

Will definitely keep you in my thoughts this week as your little one goes off to daycare! That's got to be tough! xoxo

Alyssa Zapinski said...

Oh baby is so adorable!! It's such a wonderful (and sad) thing to watch them grow. <3

Laurel Wadsworth said...

Such a cute little one. Mommyhood is definitely stressful. Sounds like your doing things right. Simplifying life makes everything so much easier for sure!

Angelic Sinova said...

What a cutie! I hope day care went well <3

Brendy Beauty said...

Awww....she's such a cutie!

Brendy Beauty said...

Awww....she's such a cutie!

Katie said...

Sometimes life throws a million and one hurdles at us at once and because we only know how to, we keep jumping them. Sometimes it's nice to push a few of them aside instead of jump if you know what I mean?

Saying a little prayer for you. I'm sure the bub will be fine :)

Katie <3

Amby Felix said...

The great thing about blogging is the fact that you have a platform and support when you need to get it all out there! *hugs*

Hall Around Texas said...

Yay!!! Great job Mama. I’ve been there and I know how hard it is. Definitely praying for you and for little E as well as those that will be caring for him!

Alyssa said...

Good for you!! I cannot imagine how hard it would be to have to go back to work after having a cute little baby like this guy! I bet he will be in great hands thought! Good luck lady!!

Melissa Haag said...

Its so hard to juggle EVERYTHING as a mother. There is no magical formula that is right, we just do the best we can!

Kendall Rayburn said...

What a cutie pie! I've got two boys, one is 3 and one is 10 months - juggling everything is HARD momma. You're not alone!

Jessica Doll @ Team Wiking said...

Your little is so cute. I know sometimes it can feel overwhelming, but I promise you that "This too, shall pass."

Rebekah Clarke said...

I totally know where you're at - week 3 of back to work here and it is tough... I seriously feel like I'm just failing at everything. I hope daycare went well ♥

Ayana Pitterson said...

I hear you and let me tell you that it will get better. Don't stress yourself too much to get back into it, take it slow and set your priorities.

Thrifting Diva
www.thriftingdiva.com

Avie T said...

He is just to adorable!! And congrats on making it through your first week back to work!

Michelle Chouinard said...

Your baby is waaaay more important than a clean house. You'll clean it eventually. Your baby is only little once. And if the 'stuff' around you is stressing you out--donate it somewhere! Great tax deduction, and you'll streamline your life. (and PS...you're not alone, everyone feels like this from time to time. :) )

Trish said...

1. Get rid of your junk ;-) I always think I'm going to regret it, but really I just feel relieved that it's out of my life and not taking up space anymore.

2. Do you baby-wear? I had a very needy baby. Always wanted to be held, which I LOVED, but it was hard to get stuff done. When I started putting him in the moby wrap it's like our life changed. I didn't get it all done. But I could put dishes away, sweep the floor, wipe down counters. It was a nice way to be close and interact with him, but still get stuff done.

Carly said...

Oh my gosh, he is too cute! I will definitely say a few prayers for you! It's so hard to put your trust in complete strangers when it comes to your kids!

Alicia Brown said...

I love the little fox outfit! Your little one is pretty adorable too :)

Denise H said...

Oh my gosh, I can so relate to almost everything you said. It'll get better. Sometimes making a list of things I want/need to do at home help me clear the clutter from my brain.

We are all so with you, in this blogosphere.

Thinking of you!

Miranda Myrabev said...

your baby is so cute and well done you for surviving first week back at work

Maryann said...

Congrats on your first week back! Don't sweat the small stuff like cleaning. It will get done... :)

Maryann said...

Congrats on your first week back! Don't sweat the small stuff like cleaning. It will get done... :)

Liv Love said...

how cool! what a fun link up to be apart of!!! mama mondays!!! LOVE IT

Ecuador InMyEyes said...

What a beautiful little baby! And the link up is just fabulous!

Katie Limberg said...

Emmett is so cute! Life can be crazy but just make sure you are paying attention to the important parts of your life. I think spending time with your baby is a lot more important than cleaning the house. He'll be so big in no time and you'll regret not spending the time with him! You can do it :)

Christen P said...

Went back to work this week too. My house is a disaster. I am just barely maintaining laundry and dishes. What can you do? Eventually I'll get a service!

Raewyn @ Be A Warrior Queen said...

I look at this list and see things that ALL of us worry about and see the accomplishments of your week - the love you have for your son, your ability to get through work and your bravery and strength to let him go to daycare! You've got this lady

freelyfatima.com said...

Girl sometimes you NEED to let that stuff out. i could totally relate to a lot of what you listed! Hopefully things balance out soon

freelyfatima.com said...

Girl sometimes you NEED to let that stuff out. i could totally relate to a lot of what you listed! Hopefully things balance out soon

Aleshea said...

Prayin' you find a happy medium real soon